I'm sorry, I haven't had the time to update. My eating was crazy the last week, i'm really ashamed. When I'm at home and I have everything under conrol, only healthy food in my fridge and my appartment organized, everything goes well. I keep my calories in check and do my exercise. But (and there comes the big but (and maybe also the big butt *lol*)) when I get depressed my appartment is a mess (like right now), I feel the urge to binge (like the past days) and I am totally out of control. I don't want to face the scale right now, I feel like an idiot, because I am not capable of keeping my emotions under control.
I want to be thin so bad!!!
And what do I do??!?
I'm trying really hard to get out of my binge mode. I really need to clean my apartment and get myself together. I have so much things to do, I'm going on a week-end trip in two days and I need to do some laundry. I so depressed, I don't even want to go on vacation right now. I'll have to eat there, and I know it's going to be hard not to binge. I'm going with a friend who had an eating disorder once, and I can't make her suspicious in any way. I have to pretend that I'm completely normal. Well, I have to get through this. Right now I'm in such a bad mood..