Dienstag, 13. Oktober 2009

binge monster

ugh I'm such an idiot!
Everything went fine until I came home and ate.
First of all why did I eat?!?
I had my tea in the morning and a little clementine, which was absolutely okay.
Somehow my brain stopped working when I walked into my kitchen today and I had a huge bowl of rice with sweet&sour sauce (chinese stuff my ex-roommate left in my fridge, why the hell didn't I already throw it away?), thinking of it still makes me wanna throw up.
I seariously need to get myself together and be serious about my goals. Because this is f'ing not gonna bring me closer to my goals.
I just want the day to be over.
I have to find a way to get rid of all the calories I ate.
I think I'm not gonna eat anything tomorrow. I'll fast and allow myself to have just water and tea.
I'm not gonna allow food to control me.

take care all my readers, I hope your doing better than me.


  1. don't be too hard on yourself, one binge isn't the end of the world and there's always tomorrow. i know you've got the strength and determination to stick to your plan, you just have to find it and remember it. you can totally do this!

  2. I agree. Just think of it as a tiny bump in the road... learn from your mistakes and forget it.

    Best of luck..! =)

  3. thank you girls
    it's true, sometimes I'm overreacting.
    I'm back on track today, feeling much better..

  4. Today was bad but now you have to do better tomorrow.
    You cant change the past but you deffentaly can change the future.
    Kick your but and start working and one day you will see that the butt you have to kick is small and sexy.

    Stay strong